Clarity

Competing.

I work in Food & Beverage, a certain part of it which is highly competitive. There is a lot of camaraderie and respect between professionals but there is competition as well. That’s what I did beginning of this month, I was competing in one of my industry’s competitions. It went as bad as it could really, overtime presentations feeling of being under preparedness when you see your peers. They got to me and all of a sudden, although my work is well rated by your peers and public, imposter syndrome kicked in when I was next to other professionals. I started seeing things, notice differences and every single one of those became another question mark.

The things I’ve thought to be acceptable, good, great cease to be so. Not necessarily a bad thing, because that’s what’s positive about competing. I lined up people know same level or better than you and it gave me a chance to ask myself some questions.

It’s not all bad, although I did horribly, I managed to qualify. Two months to fix stupid mistakes, make this a success.

I’m usually quite laid-back but I know I’m good at this. It’s time to get back to work and not repeat the same horrendous display.